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3 years of polytechnic is going to end very very soon. I can still remember the first day of school, how I feel so exclusive to be in a polytechnic, knowing that I can control my studies and my other commitments well. I did not have to worry of cracking my brains 24 hours like those in junior colleges.

It was indeed a fruitful journey.  I am really glad for everyone I’ve met, for everything I’ve been through. All those care-free days in year 1, going to spsu every now and then just to hang out with friends. Going for camps and just losing ourselves.

I love my 2nd and 3rd year classmates. Cause though we all may not know each other well but we can proudly say that we are a united class at the end of the day. We have take various opportunities to get to know one another better. Hope we all still continue to keep in contact yeah?

This 4 weeks really set me thinking of where I should head next. I really have no idea. Half of me wants to embark on the career, well the other half says I should continue to study. But I cannot bear the fact that I have to start to be responsibility of my own financial matters. And I really want to be. It’s been 20 years my mum and my brother have been responsible for them. Isn’t it time to repay them? Before everything is too late?

Well. Let’s see where all this will bring me to.

Cheers =)

It’s a week since 2010 came, and I’ve been greeted by plenty of reports and submission. Oh man. Not liking it but I really want to do it well. My MST results are very encouraging so I got to really give it all out during presentations and also the final exam.

Was talking to Amelia about continuing to university education. It is going to be very tough to opt for BA in uni, so I think if I really want to consider a degree, I may want to take a degree in Psychology. Or even Events? Hahakz. Weird degrees coming to my mind now. Should I or should I not?

Well, it all really has to depend on my final semester’s results. I really really hope to score.

Oh well.

Chiaoz

And I am going to meet these two things on saturday! Wee!

As usual, inspiration to blog always comes when

- Bored of studying

- Reading of other people’s blog

Yes. After blog-hopping, I decided to blog. Again.

Hahakz.  I know I’ve not been updating much. Probably because I have no mood to write, nothing inspirational to talk about, or just so lazy to update about life. Cause it’s not as interesting.

However, let’s dig up something interesting to post here alright?

I got a message from this lady over here just asking “hey.. how are you? Want to meet up with the rest on the coming week?”

So sweet and thoughtful of her right? Hahakz. My poly forum people. A few of them though. Satish, emilla and Aini! Wee! I am meeting them when  I come back from Phuket! Can’t wait.

Anyway look at the hectic schedule in December 2009

8th Dec – End of MST,  karaoke with classmates, hopefully to meet aunty how for dinner

9th Dec – Marina Barage =) wee!

10th Dec – JB trip with Bib!

11th Dec – Project meet up: SM project at TCC

12th to 15th Dec- NYAA expedition

16th to 19th Dec – Phuket!

20th Dec- Meet up with Poly Forum people

21st Dec – BD meeting

22nd Dec – Meet up with Nadz!

23rd – 25th Dec -FREE

26th Dec – Ben and Jerry’s performance [Do come, 8pm. B&J Cathay]

27th to 31st Dec  -FREE

So yes. All those meet ups. Not even working. Hahkz.

When new year starts, there’ll be plenty of deadlines to meet. Not forgetting the last exam!

Oh well, and now, I aim to finish studying and head for a jog. So chiaoz!

Okay, I will just update, so nice to have the date as my title of the post. Well the number 6th is such a significant number. Firstly it’s twice of my favourite number. Next, there’s quite a number of milestone of this number.

6th August 2006.

6th March 2008

6th June 2009

and today

6th December 2009

I will not tell you what those dates mean. It just marks an event, both happy and sad.

There was another pretty pretty date worth remembering in my life.

- 5th May 2005 or 05/05/05

Whoever it may concern. It’s a pretty cool date don’t you think.

Let’s recall some dates that I used to remember

14th December 2004

30th July 2005 – That’s Jia Yu’s 15th birthday. But something else happened on that day too. Hehe.

30th November 2005 – Bestest time in Prague. Go figure.

14th Decemeber 2005

Then came 6th August 2006

Lol.

Memories are really worth remembering. Agreeable?

And to some people, dates are something that they really want to remember. From the look of it, I used to be one of those people. I love to remember dates.

I still do right now.

But what’s more important is what really took place, not how long it has taken place, or not just for the sake of counting the years.

What matters most, your heart’s in it.

Okay, believe it or not, I’ve not updated this site for like 3 weeks? Hahakz. I have been as busy as a bee lately, plus I don’t see any point of updating though. But today I just feel like typing my thoughts down. So here goes.

How’s life been? Busy as I mentioned earlier, lots of things that happen recently somehow alerted me on the fact that I will be graduating soon and I’ll see the real world pretty pretty soon. The real world is nothing much like what I’ve been in for the past 13 years of education, so somehow I do get a little frighten.

Having said that, I think there’s still two options to what I’ll be doing after graduation; first is to apply for uni despite knowing of the slim chances and secondly to source for good employers. I really think the latter sounds more realistic but I do want to see if I can really squeeze myself to the university. Any would do, as long as it’s within the financial constraints and it is in Singapore. I have a mum to keep company.

Next, I’ve so called abandon my personal life, I really put aside all the little small things that trouble me a lot like knowing I have a queue of guys waiting to get to know me. I know I sounded like I’m some big thing, but I wish there was no line though. I decided to just abandon that fact, live with it, and just be the bad person. Somehow when times are busy, there’ll be these people waiting. The next time when I’m really looking, there won’t be anyone. So whatever. Life’s like that, never fair. What I know is I am happy with how things are now.

Again, sometimes I do live in the past, I do get dejavu, I do have dreams, I do have regrets. Of course, despite all those, I do move on.

Next, I just want to make my last semester in polytechnic a fulfilling one. Be it making new friends, more significance difference to the club and of course, better commitments to my study. I have to want this badly, and there is only me to rely on to fulfill my desired goals. There is no time to look for anyone to support me in this. I got to do this myself.

So, do not expect me to update any sooner? If you want to get yourself updated, I’m always available for you to talk to, face to face =)

Hidayah

Ok, it’s been pretty long since I’ve updated this space. I am getting bored with blogging.  Means that I pretty much don’t really see a point of doing so, since I am absorbed with the worldly things around me. Hahakz. Let me recall things that has taken place. I think, it’s been school, school, spac2go, fyp and what else? I don’t know.

I will be back with a proper post =)

“And if you tear the truth in me, you’d understand why you can never be a part of me.

Just walk away, baby please don’t stay

I can’t pretend living another life telling you I’ve seen it all”

Can someone please tell me what’s the title of the song?

On a brighter note. I received a call.

I am glad how things are unfolding for you. I still think of you each time my thoughts flew far away from the reality.

It’s probably fated that we have the weirdest friendship yet the most magical thing that NO ONE else will be able to understand what we share.

I thank God that I have impacted your life in one way another. The one you called  “My Saving Grace”

Oh well, what else can happen from now on? Hahakz. If you ever need someone to save you from misery ONCE IN A WHILE, I think I will be able to help you out =) I think that’s what God has probably written in our fate.

“If only I could talk to you, saying the words I can’t find the words in my heart. “

“I’ve seen it all… so I’m saving you the pain for when you fall”

Have not updated on Raya. Anyway, usuals usuals. Photos photos. Food food. Money money.

Came back at around 7pm on first day of raya, slept for like 2 hrs, woke up watch tv, while others would still be lingering around their relative’s place till wee hours in the morning. Raya is cool for me or what? Lol.

The week was then spend with catching up with friends, movies and stuff like that. On Monday, met up with Andre, Inez and Jia Yu for a little treat to the aunty’s super belated birthday. Oh well, our initial plan was ruined and we realised how difficult and torturing it is to blindfold aunty How! Oh man! We were all so worn out at the end of the day. The day ended with food feast at my place, and everyone was like dead after so much food in their tummy!

Meet up with Amelia on Weds was awesome. We catch up a lot and we took photos and she’s really a darling. Hahakz. Thursday was ” Time traveller’s wife” with Skinz. Good movie. Love it. Company was great too =)

Friday and saturday were lazy days. Gonna be so too on Sunday. I hope next week would be a better week? Don’t really have anything on except that I’m gonna catch “Fame” with Amelia on Tues evening. Can’t wait though.

Exam results doesn’t spell great. It spells average but I so thank GOD for like cumulative GPA 3.0. Seriously that is really pretty unbelievable for a bad sem GPA.

Okay pictures pictures!