Finally, it’s the Holidays!

Yes, finally it’s the holiday. It’s time to take a breath from hectic school work, projects, meetings or whatsoever. It’s time to LET LOOSE!!! Yea, many exciting things ahead. Hmm is it that many? Ok, gonna have class chalet, clique 6 outing, the 6-monthly meet up with a certain fren, the meet up of all alumni at choir camp. And not to forget, the ENDLESS DEDICATION TO LECTURE NOTES, TUTORIALS FOR THE MST WEEK. Yes. How great -_-

Well, anywayz, been long since I blogged. Things are pretty fine physically, mentally still stable. Emotionally unstable actually, but all covered up by the ‘pretty fine physically, mentally still stable’ attitude. Haha, I had an emotional roller coaster last weekend, the impact was still there.

I shared it with bestie. While telling her so, I realised, I’ve been caring so much about how the rest feel, till I forget how to feel. On the other hand, other people thinks that I am selfish cause I sound like I am wholly concerned about myself. But actually, when I stood up for my rights, I stood up more for the people around me. Mainly my family and the closest person to me now. I just got furious and everything cause of them. Cause of how they feel.

I actually reacted in such a way cause I had hold enough. I have let it be like that long enough. And now, when the ‘finale’ comes, I got so boiled up that I just burst.

It then came upon to me of how terrible I am as a person.

And so I ended up emo-ing the whole week. Though it was totally covered by the jovial and nonsense crap Hidayah. She was just putting a brave front. As usual -_- There isn’t a new me at all.

And so she sometimes feel that the person she loved the most was not there for her when she needed her. Her mum.

And the next closest person is nowhere to be found.

Thanks Jia Yu, for at least picking up my call when I needed someone to talk to =) You are my bestie.

Yes, I didn’t have a good week. Everything was ONLY fine.