Ipod

Synchronizing the IPOD was not an easy job, knowing you will lose all the old songs, and getting 400 new songs into it. It took me close to 2 hrs, tidying up everything and now I am satisfied I got it all done. I will have more motivation to listen to the songs in my Ipod although it is only 2GB. I know I am such loser, people are walking with Ipod touch or whatsoever, no worries my next target will be an Ipod Touch. =)

Today is the 2nd day of Chinese New Year and I went to work. I had great fun, though I think I fumble so much during my commentaries and I think I am such a slack tour guide that you can find on this planet earth, okay at least at duck tours. Haha. But oh well, it’s just about the Singapore River when you work, and there is nothing else.  I always countdown to 6pm, cause that’s when I get to go off from work, satisfied from the $10/hr pay that I will be receiving soon! Hehe.

Okay, so I am actually not looking forward to work on Saturday, well it will be the last one before I actually break off for exams and attachment. I think I will still want to earn my from taining though I have attachment. Well, see how things go.

I can feel that the projects suffering are coming to an end soon and it will be 24 hrs mugging session till the end of exams.  Oh man, and then followed by attachment then SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN. And it will be my final year POLY. Gosh.

What am I going to do after Poly? Should I really work and study at the same time.

That is tough man.

Sentosa Flowers 09

I went to Sentosa yesterday with Odie. We were reminiscing much about the times we had there before we got together. That’s how I met him, though he didn’t actually like me at that time. Lol.

This is like a year ago. Last day of work.

Here is the rest of the peepz. Miss working with these people though. And the place is called the Language of Love [LOL]

Now…

It’s called the Colours of Love

I really enjoyed my time there with you. I just love the feeling of going Sentosa with him. It’s also a time when we start to sort things out and eventually learn to appreciate each other’s presence more.

I’m really thankful for you being who you are. Life definitely wouldn’t be the same without you around.

And then we headed to talk about the future, though we tell each other that we shouldn’t put much hope on it because both of us learnt before that when we put too much hopes in the future, eventually future will not come our way.  So, we just talked, laying out what we want to do in times to come. Nothing of which we talked about highlights a meeting point for us, cause we totally have two different paths of life that we want to take to achieve our dreams.

“But I want to achieve that dream with the one that always motivate me “

We will ok?

It’s all about faith and trust.

Year 2009

This week will be the 3rd week in 2009, and many people have been saying that 2009 is indeed a bad year; nothing has been good ever since the start of it. I don’t know if I should agree much, but yes, life’s now ain’t really that great. I never felt so stress of life, with loads of school work with exams coming in a months time and ITP next, and by then it will be the start of school again.

Through assignments in school, everyone saw everyone’s true colours and it really ain’t that nice. *Sigh* Oh well, but at least I am glad we still support one another through this taxing period.

To my group friends, I know indeed it isn’t a good year, but hey, everything happens for a reason.

To my that one person, life is difficult, I feel your pain very much and I’m trying  real hard to search the strength for us. I don’t want to make 2009 a bad year for us. I cannot imagine if anything were to happen to us right now.

Everyone is facing difficult times, I am facing mine to. In times like this, I lose all my strength as a person. Oh well.

Let’s just all hope for the best and make 2009 a good year =)

My Neighbour

It seems funny that now we treat neighbours as a total stranger. Personally I’ve never been very close to my neighbour. It’s like I only smile at them. That’s it. So today. I met my neighbour which lives just next door.

I actually met him already, but always avoided talking to him, it’s just that I am lazy to put up a smile and talk and be nice when sometimes you are just tired of the day, and of course no one wants to put a bad impression right. So today he came to talk to me when I was walking home. We met on the bus and when we got down, he decided to walk home with me.

He’s nice, currently working, but he’s dressing is like a little boy going down to play at the playground.  I found out he is in the 20s and is working as a graphic designer.

Oh well, that is my encounter with my neighbour.

Other than that, I am just going to ramble on about life. How it sucks so bad.Yupz.  Plus I am really that same old Hidayah, just that now I am trying so hard to put up a brave front. I can do it in front of my friends, but not to the person who it may concerns the most.

I am just a bad hypocrite. I so cannot act like I am okay. I don’t know why. I used to be able to I guess, like I am the hard core girl who doesn’t get affected by anything and so strong to face anything. [According to my friends] But I don’t know, I feel that I am turning weak, turning so much into a GIRL. I can’t take it.

I cannot be like this man. I need to be able to be that strong girl. I need to. Cause, I don’t always have someone to lean on. No matter how bad I know that I have, but you know what, someday, you may have to stand on your own feet, without anyone to help you. So I need to tell myself, Hidayah, you are strong enough to face all the challenges that is on your way.

If I still can’t do that. There’s only one thing to do, sit alone and cry till I feel better.

Life’s like that.

Totally drained!

I am totally worn out. Oh My God. I feel that my eyes are dropping out soon and my brain is exploding. With the work load piling up, I can’t believe that I’ve been using my brain like non-stop for the past week. The only time the brain doesn’t think about anything important is when I am sleeping. And I don’t feel I have enough sleep. I need a day off man!

And I am suppose to work tomorrow. Damn, I so don’t feel like working. I just want to finish my work. I want to finish my tutorials, study for test and finish my reports and maybe do some prep for coming presentations. Yes I sound like a total geek, nerd that has no life, but it’s only for this period of time and I just want to get over these things! Urgh!

I am so glad this does not happen continuously for like 3 whole years, it’s like there will be just be a period of time that it is so hectic. Other than that, it’s like play, play and more play.

Haiz. I need a good day off. I just want to read my book, listen to songs and sleep. I want a rest.

I still have performance coming up next week.

God, I need the strength. I need brain booster. I need stamina.

I don’t mind going for a jog, I don’t mind singing my lungs out, I don’t mind doing stupid things.

I just want a break.

Setting up Sunday

That is the title of a song that I was listening to by Meg and Dia.  I am in the midst of my research for the so many projects that should been started in the holidays but as Ms Juliana Ong said, the holidays were too good! Lol.

Haiz, sitting down here, thinking so much of what is going to happen this year. I hope 2009 will be good, with more music, more life, more love and friends. I have one mission in life, to make a difference is people’s life that I come across. I don’t know if I have sucessfully done so for the past 18 years, but I know there’s still a long way to go.

Of course, for myself, there’s so many things that I want to do, I want to be able to live life fully, like to the max. I don’t want to miss a single thing, I want to enjoy every bit of life cause you know what, life is short. It is not as long as you think. You may not know that maybe tomorrow or next week or even a few seconds later, you may not be able to enjoy life as you used to.

One thing that I don’t wish to stop doing is to make music, with whoever that appreciates it as much as I do.

One thing that I want to stop doing, is to hurt every other’s feelings when I have to turn them down. I just hope that I will be a good friend, nothing more.

One thing that I want to keep on doing is to love with all my heart, cause love is something extraordinary and you should appreciate it and give it all when it happens to you.

One thing I want to do is to stop the whole emotional rides on that up and down roller coaster, cause like you said, when it happens, it feels that you are punching yourself real hard, and that I am suffering from slow death.

One thing that I always want to do is able to hug and kiss my mum and tell her that I love her much, and that I will take care of her no matter what happens. I still have yet to find the courage to do that every now and then.

One thing that I want to do is to excel in my studies so that my brother will feel that it is not wasted to spend so much on me. I want to be able to be someone that everyone will look up to.

One thing that I want to do is to have a blissful life, like any of you folks would wish for.

Happy New Year!

Yay! It’s 2009. So many resolutions, yet, no urge to jot it down. Neither will I jot it down here. Haha. New Year was great. I celebrated with dearest at Marina Bay Countdown, he actually bought tickets to the countdown itself. So sweet right. Hahakz.

We hang around till 4 am, headed home like two drunkards. Lol. And I am still suffering from lack of sleep from that day.

On New Year’s itself, I went to work awhile.

Then met up with dearest again for dinner and we did some shopping before we head home.

School is bleah. Projects and projects and projects.

Sianz.

Chiaoz