Thing called “Update”

Okay, believe it or not, I’ve not updated this site for like 3 weeks? Hahakz. I have been as busy as a bee lately, plus I don’t see any point of updating though. But today I just feel like typing my thoughts down. So here goes.

How’s life been? Busy as I mentioned earlier, lots of things that happen recently somehow alerted me on the fact that I will be graduating soon and I’ll see the real world pretty pretty soon. The real world is nothing much like what I’ve been in for the past 13 years of education, so somehow I do get a little frighten.

Having said that, I think there’s still two options to what I’ll be doing after graduation; first is to apply for uni despite knowing of the slim chances and secondly to source for good employers. I really think the latter sounds more realistic but I do want to see if I can really squeeze myself to the university. Any would do, as long as it’s within the financial constraints and it is in Singapore. I have a mum to keep company.

Next, I’ve so called abandon my personal life, I really put aside all the little small things that trouble me a lot like knowing I have a queue of guys waiting to get to know me. I know I sounded like I’m some big thing, but I wish there was no line though. I decided to just abandon that fact, live with it, and just be the bad person. Somehow when times are busy, there’ll be these people waiting. The next time when I’m really looking, there won’t be anyone. So whatever. Life’s like that, never fair. What I know is I am happy with how things are now.

Again, sometimes I do live in the past, I do get dejavu, I do have dreams, I do have regrets. Of course, despite all those, I do move on.

Next, I just want to make my last semester in polytechnic a fulfilling one. Be it making new friends, more significance difference to the club and of course, better commitments to my study. I have to want this badly, and there is only me to rely on to fulfill my desired goals. There is no time to look for anyone to support me in this. I got to do this myself.

So, do not expect me to update any sooner? If you want to get yourself updated, I’m always available for you to talk to, face to face =)

Hidayah

Updates!

Ok, it’s been pretty long since I’ve updated this space. I am getting bored with blogging.  Means that I pretty much don’t really see a point of doing so, since I am absorbed with the worldly things around me. Hahakz. Let me recall things that has taken place. I think, it’s been school, school, spac2go, fyp and what else? I don’t know.

I will be back with a proper post =)

Baby please don’t stay

“And if you tear the truth in me, you’d understand why you can never be a part of me.

Just walk away, baby please don’t stay

I can’t pretend living another life telling you I’ve seen it all”

Can someone please tell me what’s the title of the song?

On a brighter note. I received a call.

I am glad how things are unfolding for you. I still think of you each time my thoughts flew far away from the reality.

It’s probably fated that we have the weirdest friendship yet the most magical thing that NO ONE else will be able to understand what we share.

I thank God that I have impacted your life in one way another. The one you called  “My Saving Grace”

Oh well, what else can happen from now on? Hahakz. If you ever need someone to save you from misery ONCE IN A WHILE, I think I will be able to help you out =) I think that’s what God has probably written in our fate.

“If only I could talk to you, saying the words I can’t find the words in my heart. “

“I’ve seen it all… so I’m saving you the pain for when you fall”

Raya!

Have not updated on Raya. Anyway, usuals usuals. Photos photos. Food food. Money money.

Came back at around 7pm on first day of raya, slept for like 2 hrs, woke up watch tv, while others would still be lingering around their relative’s place till wee hours in the morning. Raya is cool for me or what? Lol.

The week was then spend with catching up with friends, movies and stuff like that. On Monday, met up with Andre, Inez and Jia Yu for a little treat to the aunty’s super belated birthday. Oh well, our initial plan was ruined and we realised how difficult and torturing it is to blindfold aunty How! Oh man! We were all so worn out at the end of the day. The day ended with food feast at my place, and everyone was like dead after so much food in their tummy!

Meet up with Amelia on Weds was awesome. We catch up a lot and we took photos and she’s really a darling. Hahakz. Thursday was ” Time traveller’s wife” with Skinz. Good movie. Love it. Company was great too =)

Friday and saturday were lazy days. Gonna be so too on Sunday. I hope next week would be a better week? Don’t really have anything on except that I’m gonna catch “Fame” with Amelia on Tues evening. Can’t wait though.

Exam results doesn’t spell great. It spells average but I so thank GOD for like cumulative GPA 3.0. Seriously that is really pretty unbelievable for a bad sem GPA.

Okay pictures pictures!

Supposedly

I am suppose to be doing training program, but I am so freaking lazy to start planning. No motivation. Hahakz. Lazy to type things down now.

I am suppose to blog like an hour ago, but I take like AN HOUR to start blogging.

I am suppose to read books that I bought way back before exams, but I’ve not even touched them.

I am suppose to ensure that my sleeping time goes back to normal but you know what, I think it’ll be more screwed with just 5 hours of sleep only.

What else am I suppose to do?

I am suppose to lose weight in fasting month but in fact I gain.

I am suppose to dream but I am stuck in reality. LOL ok that’s random

I am suppose to… I have no idea what else I am suppose to do!

Hahakz. Random post.

Oh, I am suppose to update regularly, so that people like Jin Wei will stop wandering why I did not update my blog.

So have fun reading people.

Possession

[i love you] means i really care about you….One say it out but not to expect any returns or anything but just to express his/her thoughts…

[i love you] means that it is because there are pure and sincere thoughts…in the hope that this 3 magical words can bring you happiness and futurity and because of having such thoughts and faith people will give their heart to a person,they knew they will love forever…

[ i love you ] needs better emphasis especially to your love ones.Who ever has been in your heart and has make a difference in your life ,do tell them how much you love them.Because you might regret not telling them but always do take note of the situation.Never express when you know that it is not appropriate and if you think that things is not going to work your way.BUT at least you say it …so there is nothing to lose! Surprised them with this words…

You must know that this words may just be three words but it carries a lot of meaning

- of my possessions. Someone ever replied. But I still like it UN-replied. =)

Updates!

I am so upset I deleted a whole entry of updates of this week that I drafted on the train! Urgh! It’s alright, I will just write a new one. Anyway it’s much better to be typing on the laptop instead.

Oh my, it’s been a week since the examinations were over over over! Yes. So so happy that the term is over, and finally, 7 weeks break to look ahead. Though next few weeks will be filled with projects and things like that, but it is definitely better than having school at the same time.

Yupz. So after the last paper ended, I met mum at Tampines Mall for some shopping.  Bought shoes and bag for the upcoming festive.  Been quite a few years since I had new bag and shoes for Raya, so yes, at least this year got them brand new. Dinnered at BBQ chicken, and it was really a good time spent with the Mom.

On tuesday I headed to get an iTouch, something which I’ve been longing to get to cheer me up after the terrible semester. Yes. Got it, and then headed to Geylang for some shopping. Didn’t get anything though, was just joining the festive atmoshpere.

Wednesday was spend with the classmates at TopOne. I only came at 4 plus when the rest already sang their hearts out from 11 in the morning. Enjoyed that few hours, headed for dinner at Illuma followed by a hell lot of gossips and discussions and nothing associated with projects or school!

Friday came and I went to meet up Romeo for satay at Esplanade! Been really really long since I saw him. We had a good time catching up about how work has been going and about life. Yes. Was a short one though.

Saturday was spend with Daddy! and went Jamming also. Break fast at Arab Street. Just like the whole atmosphere there. Really heartwarming. After which went jamming for an hour with the bandits and then headed to Geylang again! Khai was searching for a gold baju kurung. I did henna on my right hand and also lots lots stories to end the day!

Really had fun and stuff, can’t wait to like meet up with friends whom I’ve not been able to meet despite the busy busy schedule. Yes. And can’t wait for raya and also didn’t realise it’s already the 16th day of fasting. Time really passes like a wind.

Till then. Chiaoz.

Complete

Didn’t realize that it’s already 14 days of fasting. Not cleaned the room or the house, not even started on cookies.. Haha.
Oh well it’s a hell of a week. Just need to continue to smile =)

Symphony – Marie Digby

Here I go again in my dreamy eyes
I should be content but something’s just not satisfied, oh
It’s nothing that you did, I’m still on your side
I can’t love you if I’m not sure who I am inside

‘Cause there are some questions that need some answers
What is it I’m really after?
The clock’s ticking so I can’t wait around

This is my now, this is my today
No more sitting on the side waiting for my chance to play
Time to step out, so much to say
But I’ll never get the chance if I don’t break away
And write my own symphony, write my own symphony
I gotta write my own symphony, write my own symphony
Just let me write my own symphony

I’ve always got my head way up in the clouds
Something in me wants to fly away and leave the ground, oh
If you could hear my thoughts when no one’s around
Then you’d understand my fear of being held down

‘Cause I wanna explore the world around me
Dance under the stars above me
And be free to make my own mistakes

This is my now, this is my today
No more sitting on the side waiting for my chance to play
Time to step out, so much to say
But I’ll never get the chance if I don’t break away
And write my own symphony, write my own symphony
I gotta write my own symphony, write my own symphony
Just let me write my own symphony

‘Cause every minute you’re here with me
(You’re here with me)
It gets harder to turn and walk away, oh
But I gotta chase my destiny

(My destiny)
No matter how hard or long it takes

This is my now, this is my today
No more sitting on the side waiting for my chance to play
Time to step out, so much to say
But I’ll never get the chance if I don’t break away
And write my own symphony, gotta write my own symphony
Write my own symphony, but I can’t if you’re here with me
I gotta write my own symphony, let me go and write my own symphony
Write my own symphony, need to go where you can’t follow me
Just let me write my own symphony

Mum’s day!

Okay, it doesn’t mean that it is mother’s day today, just that I spent my day shopping with Mom at Tampines Mall today! Great great day cause I bought lots of things, bought her a birthday gift too and we had a good dinner at BBQ chicken, followed by a taxi ride home.